Stronger Me

Loser

2012-02-13T21:18:00.002+08:00

I am a loser... Born to be one. Failure is always with me. No matter how much I tried, bad things just came knocking at my door. No matter how nice I treat him, how much I done for him, he still choose to left me at ECP. No matter how much I dun eat, I am still fat!!!! No matter how much I stand focus on my work, things just happen!!! Y? Y? Y? Why can't I just do one thing right? Why can't I be like others, find my loved one and get married. Life is so unfair! I am jinx, a bitch , a fool, a fatty and witch and a idiot. That's my life.

Surprise!!!

2012-02-02T22:50:00.002+08:00

2 surprises in a day!!! He like my photo and he asked me out for dinner today!!! :D I am so happy though I can't make it cos got class. I dunno how to describe the feelings right now. Is like roller coaster, exciting and scare! Haha

And our MSG is better den now, I even tease him. Omg! Is this a dream? Can somebody tell me whats on his mind?

乱

2012-01-27T17:48:00.002+08:00

在我还不能确定我的心情之前，我决定不会见你。

Trust

2012-01-22T21:34:00.002+08:00

What is left when trust is gone? When things dun work out what should we do? To go against or leave it behind...

We met. After 2 mths and 14 days... He still look the same but I can't find the shadow of him before 74 days ago. The gentle tone, seems so familiar and distance. His care and concern look so polite to me. What went wrong??? The feeling is tearing us up!

Should I trust him? I dunno... Esp after the ECP drama, he said he regretted to left me behind... "Things will get better, trust me!" These words came out from his mouth, giving me so much strength and energy to rebuild our bond. I told him I am sad that things dun seems to go on the right track for us. Where has the trust gone to?? I am slowly picking up, bit by bit... But it takes 2 hands to clap. I wanna trust him... I must trust him... And I have to trust him! But can I... Still...?

2012-01-21T17:08:00.001+08:00

Praying the watch looks ok!!! I don't dare to call him and ask what time he coming... I know if he doesn't call, it means the watch is like shit! And... It also means that the end for the 2 of us...😣

心情

2012-01-20T00:36:00.001+08:00

Will I see him on Sat? What if I just get to see him for a min???

Random thought

2012-01-18T19:52:00.002+08:00

What if I choose to leave 1st this time round? Will I regret? Or will he regret what he did to me? Though I keep telling him we can go back to the past but seriously, can we???

Stupid Me

2012-01-16T22:59:00.002+08:00

Cannot imagine I am so stupid, I 1st thing I ask was the watch!!! Damn it! Arrgghh!!! I hate myself!!! I wanted to ask abt his flu but see, I messed things up again. But at least he is willing to see me, the moment he said " if you dun mind some flu, I can come over and take from you." Oh is that his concern, I am touched. Nobody will understand our stories and what we been through... But I know things will get better, right? 我怕我会越陷越深。。。God, pls pray for us!!!

Sick

2012-01-16T22:05:00.003+08:00

We are both on MC today but i dnt tell him.. He was sick for few days already.. I wanted to msg him is he feeling better dun i dun dare, I wanted to call him and ask but I am thinking he might need more rest... Haiz...

I was looking back our past conversation history in msn, we chatted almost everything. Whenever he is away, he will always make point to contact me, be it a cal, mag or fb... He is so nice and sweet but look at today, I dun even have the guts to call him. Should I show concern???

Mixed emotions

2012-01-15T22:11:00.002+08:00

Yippee!!! Finally!!! Though get some bad remarks about Hongkong but I dunno care. 我就是要去. Going for a 6D/5N from 19-24 Apr '12. Only the 3 of us but I am sure we going to have a great time!!!

We spoke. He decided to use the fake glass cos is much cheaper. He never intend to make me pay, he is just angry cos that his fav watch. He suddenly so 温柔, his gentle tone is back, is been how long that nice voice. I nearly forgotten... He said things will get well soon, just give him abit of time. I dunno if I still can trust him after all the drama. When he is nice, he is nicest and sweetest guy I ever met. But when he got mad, he hurts me deeply. I am scare... But when he is so gentle, my heart melted I know 我离不开了... But I am still stuck, I dunno if he still wan my concern, if he still like me like b4, I dunno if he will still trust me... Just now he said he not feeling well, I wanted to say have a good rest, did you take medicine and etc but I didn't. I dunno... I just feel so 辛苦 but I dun want to lose him. What should I do???

I am Angry and Tired!

2011-10-07T19:39:00.002+08:00

I am simple, treat me nice and you get twice back! That's it, understand!

I seriously dun feel anything wrong with me, the problem lies you pple. U bunch of idiots!

Hate repeating over and over again... Just get it done and move on la.

Do you think I like to follow behind? Hey c'mon, I have better things to do!

I see things from a different view from you, I know what I am doing, I voice out not bcos I am bossy, is bocs somebody have to get things done rite?!

What's the point of having a deadline when you can't submit on time? And yet you are doing the least?

我也会累的好吗...?

I wonder how you are doing, i miss you. So much to say and not to say...

I wonder if you miss me like I do...

I wonder if you are less stress and depress, I want to see the happy and funny you that always disturb me no matter if I feel annoyed.

I wonder if we can go back to the past...

Somethings are not the same anymore... I know.

Contented

2011-09-18T21:01:00.003+08:00

So many things happen. I could have lost him but I changed mind. I told him i won't let any small dispute to injure our great relationship. I admit i was real mad with him at 1st, this is not the 1st time he went hiding when he is stressed and depressed. I even told him stop telling me his updates, I am not interested anymore. But after i cool down, i feel sad for him, i know he dun mean it for breaking his promise, he don't have a choice and since this is his 1st time, I shall forgive him. :p I know I still mean alot to him, he remembers everything i told him. Whenever he got the time, he will make it up for me. I guess I need to learn to control my temper. I wanted to... Seriously, my hot-temper is my 柈脚石 in life.

I dun know what happen to me sometimes... I begin to suspect my bestfriend... She said i am over-sensitive, I guess so too. Feel so upset, I should have trust her, though she is straight-forward at times but I know she mean it well. She is protecting me is some way... Izzit bcos the older I am, the more attention i wanna to get from my close ones??

But luckily, 2 of my love ones are back in my life. I cannot imagine my life w/o them. I need pple like them to guide me and show me the correct path...

In future, no matter what happen, I must cool myself down for 2 days before i take any action. *Swear*

Of coz, there are happy things happen too. My dear Ning got married yestersday. Omg, bet she gonna be a gorgeous bride for sure. So happy for her, sad i can't attend her wedding.

Ok,Busy bee is back in action again, projects and tests coming up!!! Damn. Bye!

$$$$

2011-08-28T02:58:00.006+08:00

Planning where to go for a holiday next year. Hmm well, there are actually 4 choices in my mind (excluding New York which I dun think Rick can go us next year)

1) Bangkok -okok, is uncountable times i been there but i really miss the Food, massage, the club (Liquor is soooo Cheap), hairdo, mani and Pedi. A short 3D/2N is good for me. heez Budget- 1K

2) Taiwan -ya i know i just went during May '11 but trust me, once you are there, you feel like you are Home. The pple there are so polite and nice, the sales gal all so pretty and good customer service. ok, thats not the point, the point is- is easy to access to any where, there Mrt route is like Sin. Easy to read (Of coz, all in Mandarin mah haha). Most important, is the foodddd at the road side, the night market, you can happily shopping and eating ur snack and your bubble tea! The best time to go is March- early May. So cooling~~ No sweat shopping! :D If only Taipei, a 4D/3N will be nice. 1.5K

3) Hongkong - wanted to go since last Year but no time and leave. 5D/4N planning... 1.8K

4) Japan - Hokkaido and Tokyo, money is the main issue. Heard Japan everything is expensive. Well, a 1 week holidays dunno 4k enough anot? Thats the most i have, if not gotto postponed again :((

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Recently been doing research for getting a Degree, hope to get a cheap, fast and reliable one. Still thinking cos i dunno if i have the determination but i really hope to get one. I want to earn and save as much money while i am young. Even if i get married one day, i also hope my hubby to be proud of me and not to rely on him.

討厌这样的我

2011-08-13T10:22:00.003+08:00

Date: 11 Aug 2011 Thursday Windy

Saw him at Dolly... I was stunned! He still look the same, I recognized him from the 1st look. 可是我好象小偷，I keep asking myself if he walk over, what should i say to him? Should i pretend very happening? or i should just be normal? Or maybe I should go up and say hi. Yes, i am like wtf!! What's wrong with me!

It was just like few mths back when I last saw him... He quited smoking. Good for him. I was happy when I saw his post in fb, i know that post is for me.. If i logged in fb and saw that when i am in dolly, very high possibility i will walk to him. Few times my head just automatically and turn to his table, every time when he go washroom, my heart beat fast, i was hoping him to walk over but yet at the same time dun wish him to recognize me. The last time he walk past my table was just right behind me, we are so near, i could have just turn ard and smile at him... but i didn't.

Y like that? Why am I behaving like that? I dun like, i seriously dun like. My hp was off last night, is not no batt, is just that I need sometime off. I am fine, really. Just wanna shut my mind off for now.

I will be back soon but my heart has never seems to return from the day he left...

夢醒了擱淺了沉默了揮手了卻回不了神.

Expectation

2011-07-10T23:01:00.003+08:00

Are friends those people whom you love without expectations?

Of course, friendship means there is no expectation. This is like a golden rule. However sometimes and with certain experiences I think ‘It is really wrong if you have even only a small expectation from your friend? Are expectations really that bad?’

There is naturally always the fact that expectations can be disappointed, they are a sign of attachment and you should love someone without expectations so that he or she does not feel any pressure from your love. If you do not have any expectation however, what makes a friend different from any other person whom you meet on the street? Don’t you expect from your friends that you can open your heart in front of them? You should even expect a friend to be the one who is there for you when there is nobody else. Otherwise why would you turn to him for support? If your friend cannot have the expectation that you will listen to him when he tells you about his emotions, then how can you call him a friend?

In a close friendship two friends have the sensitivity towards each other that before one of them even has an expectation or can express it, the other one already fulfills it. You have this connection of hearts that you know beforehand what the other one would expect. And you will fulfill it with much joy. Your friend has the question in the mind if he can expect this or not but even before he decides to expect, you give him what he wants. This even saves him of having expectations.

Expectations, if set too high, can always be disappointed. Expectations, if set too high, can create pressure. If you really love a friend however, I think some expectations do not create pressure but more love and closeness. They will not be disappointed as it is just natural for the other one to fulfill them and for you to fulfill his or hers. The expectations become a reason to love the other one even more. That is real friendship, when expectations just turn into love.

SooN!!!

2011-06-23T05:18:00.004+08:00

ICU state..

Wooh.. Soon, I am gonna bring you go mani mani. Bear with it awhile more k... heez.

The time now is 4.56AM and I am AWAKE!!! WTF!! Blame it on the thunder sound.. Damn! *yawn* still sleeply but i dun wanna go back to sleep like an hr den gotto rush for work and most of the time I will over-slept. Lol... Have a test later, yea accounting. Journal, journal and still journal, shit. A pass is not a prob for me, i mean i attend all lessons and do the assignments so it should not be a "F"! Seriously, i envy my classmates, they dun really pay attention and they dun attend every lessons but yet they got higher scores den me. Ya, young is the word! Am i too late for anything...? Dun like the feeling of sitting ard and doing nothing and hate it when you can't join in the conversation when others are talking. So, must upgrade and read more... Eventually, pple will take notice and respect you. I dun have to be a smart-alet but neither do I wan to be a bimbo. haha ok all, gtg... Have a great day! BRB soonnn... Cheers!! :)

My Damage

2011-06-11T23:51:00.009+08:00

Love this "Enamour Beauty" shop at Bugis St #02-22. Went there couple of times but this time round is the biggest damage so far. Yeah, get a membership to entitle 10% for all products, birthday month 15%. Sound cool right! haha

What caught my eyes is this Oxygen Foam Mask, love it to the max. "Bubble therapy pack, which purifies soiled skin with self-generating oxygen bubbles and deep-cleanses skin-pores."

It comes out as a thick gel, and once it oxidise with air, it forms this very thick creamy foam. It's feels amazing! you can hear the bubbles popping on your face which makes you think that this mask is WORKING! haha....woman like me is so easy to be amazed! Leave it for 3-5mins. Once the foam gets thick, you can massage it and then rinse it off! I really enjoy having this thick foam on my face, it's quite fun and it feels really good! haha

Brought a Scar zero cream, a Collagen BB cream and a Blusher too. And also this clip that is highly recommended by the salesgirl for easy putting fake eyelashes. The 2 small bottles is a sample of the toner. (I like it too). I know I will go back again... Soon!!! :D

What else can I Ask for???

2011-06-11T23:35:00.007+08:00

The best thing in life is seeing your love ones staying healthy and happy... I hope my mom can be as happy as always... Be healthy Mommy, I cannot imagine if my life is w/o you. Luv you muchie!!

I AM BACK!!!

2011-06-11T20:22:00.006+08:00

Omg, I actually forgotten about this... Seriously, no kidding.. 2 yrs, well... I guess I must be real busy ah... Busy studying, busy with work, meet some new friends and classmates, making time for some old freinds, making time for my family... Yeah, thats me!! Always busy for others! Lol

And this is me after 2 yrs >>> Fat and Ugly!! >.<

Back To School

2009-09-03T21:50:00.008+08:00

他们终于可以派上用场了!!! :D

Not a FAN

2009-09-01T23:10:00.003+08:00

Though i always heard advertisement on TV saying 80% of the women after using, their complexion become better, its one of the best investment. Well, I just happened to be one of the 20% that is not a fan of this brand. One month ago, when my mom just brought, I took it and try... Hmm... its just like plain water with a "怪怪的味道", nt to the extend of smelly la. After a few days, my face was popped with pimples!! Damn! Seriously i seldom have pimples and my complexion so far so good (though there are pple praised before hehe), i was fussed so i decided to stop using. But in my heart i was thinking, maybe the product is too strong for me. Few days ago, 我不死心, so i decided to give it one more chance... Still it turns out the same. Pimples keep coming out... Can somebody tell me whats wrong?? Still my FAV miss O.T.E the best. Affordable and good. haha

IF

2009-08-30T13:02:00.002+08:00

I ever come across this quote "If you really love someone, let him go. If he comes back to you, it's yours. If dun, means it was never meant to be yours." So i said " I don't miss you, no, I don't need you so, I can live my life without you, I'm strong enough to let you go." Cos i know he will come back to me one day.

Ever since, i keep the momentum going, I work hard, play hard, make new friends, fall in love... I tried almost everything. I startle quietness and i am really scare to hear "r u ok?" I am not a good liar and in fact i HATE liars so in order to avoid this, I started to be laughable, crappy and loquacious, i cogitated this is one of the best way to break the ice and let pple take notice of you. I dun care what others say or look at me. Slowly i got used of this type of life, my friends enjoyed my company, they love my foolish act. Though few of them might not take me seriously.

Many said i dumb, a few times i choose to ignore. Stubborn me... Few yrs later, he appeared. We have our first talk in msn (after so long) and i dunno why my tears just scrolled down... Yes, he did come back but still it wasn't meant to be mine. Now i said "Everytime I say hello, it's filled with a million I loves you and I regret everyday of my life, letting you go." I told this to a friend who was having a rocking relationship with his gf few mths back, I told him to go and get her back if you really love her, dun ever let her go. Cos i totally understand how he been through and i dun wan him to be regretted one day. Regrets is the worst feeling ever.

Dun worry, I had moved on. :) Just tat mood wasn't very good today, kinda sad actually so let me complain can?? Its a curse i wld said or maybe i was born as a jinx. Things or pple tat i like never last no matter how how much effort i put in... Its so unfair... Why human being needs to be so complicated? Why can't we just 顺起自然? or remain things as they were right now? Wat should i do now? 原地不动好吗? Sooner, i will just walk away...

And I envy Fat Cats!!! Esp sucklings tat had everything planned well for them. Most of the times i try to put on a smile esp at work but it was really tired. Wat to do? Cos I am not capable, if today i am sitting in a room, i guess i wont be the one smiling to others. Others will eventually come over "to put on an act". Well, this is a practical society. If you dun have wat it takes den just shut up. I know.

Sorry kinda emo, maybe its raining tats y but I am fine. Really. Keep those questions to yourself. Thanks.

HFH 2009

2009-07-06T19:34:00.023+08:00

THE SHAVING EVENT (A PROJECT BY CHILDREN'S CANCER FOUNDATION)

Venue: Velocity@Novena Square (main floor atrium)

Date: 5 July 2009 (Sunday)

Hair for Hope 2009 is an event, which invites members of the public to shave their heads to show their support for children with cancer. Through this symbolic gesture, we aim to:

1. Create awareness of childhood cancer in Singapore

2..Show to children with cancer and their families that they are not alone in their fight against cancer.

3. Boost the self-esteem of children undergoing chemotherapy by sending the message that there is nothing wrong in losing their hair or being bald.

4. Raise funds to help children with cancer and their families

5. Build a community of support for children with cancer and their families.

His last drive with his hair on..

Did anyone say I look excited? Opps

Q'ing up

Adeline and me while accompany the guys

last touch :p

their Q num

Filling up the form

Daimen and I

My last pic with them (with their hair on)

I support

managed to get a total of $1066(2 days only)

resignation

it begins...

Chua, are thinking how you gonna ans when you are back in office?

Botak Jones and Botak Lee

Well done guys! :D

A Magic Formula For Solving Worry Situations

2009-05-24T19:21:00.005+08:00

Thanks to a dear friend of mine, i started reading... Books i mean, not magazine yea. I love Author Dale Carnegie. Trust me, you couldn't stop the moment you got hold of his books. I am now reading How to Stop Worrying and Start Living. Maybe the first thing that come to your mind is "what a title?", yes, many people will said "Worries and Problems are always around, its everywhere you go." Of cos this book is not gonna teach you how you can stop your own problems, its just simply changing your mindset.

One of the Chapter said this; "Finally, common sense reminded me that worry wasn't getting me anywhere, so I figured out a way to handle my problem without worrying. I have been using this anti-worry technique for more than thirty years. It worked superbly."

Step I. I analyzed the situation fearlessly and honestly and figured out what was the worst that could possibly happen as a result of this failure.

Step II. After figuring out what was the worst that could possibly happen, I reconciled myself to accepting it, if necessary.

Step III. From that time on, I calmly devoted my time and energy to trying to improve upon the worst which I had already accepted mentally.

It might sound simple but many of us just reluctant to accept the fact sometimes. When we have accepted the worst, we have nothing more to lose. Which means -We have Everything to gain!

Ok babes and dudes, i am going back to my reading. Hope my sharing will get you somewhere...

Happy Mamee day!! :D

2009-05-18T21:03:00.010+08:00

My mom was so cute that day, she keep asking "why never take fotos?", " must take pic for the crab". And she put the eyeshadow that i just got for her. (Just for the dinner) whahaha... Mee mee you are so kawalli!!!

my two brothers just cannot take a gd picture together for once.

We are just too full and bored in the car.

JUST US( ME AND MY 2 BAOBEIS')

2009-05-18T20:48:00.014+08:00

We(me, my youngest bro and my baby niece, just simply love them to the max) having a great time at the Pizza Hut yea but f.y.i i had a great time sitting on my toilet bowl too. Damn!! I've got a super weak stomach lah.

A Dream within a Dream

2009-05-06T03:19:00.002+08:00

Take this kiss upon thy brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow—
You are not wrong, to deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand—
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep—while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

Wondering

2009-05-04T00:18:00.003+08:00

hmmm wondering did i do the right thing by tell him? I felt so bitchy doing so but if i don't, I will feel even like a slut. hahaha... :p As a good friend of him, i really dun wan to see him being treated like an idiot. Well i put myself in his shoe, i will be damn mad if i am the last person to know regardless are you doing for my sake anot. And I actually being through this before, i never share this with anyone, not even the one who hurt me. She might think this is the best for me but i seriously i dun like it and i hate it. ( I had a sense of being betrayedbut is ok is over) So i guess i did something right yea? This is a path that everyone gotto go through, be it you like it anot. I sincerely hope this friend of mine will get his problem solve soon. Real soon...

Hopefully "result" will be out tomorrow.

Speechless

2009-04-23T23:34:00.002+08:00

I miss my Lampchop!! I got so much things wanna tell her, I feel so suffocated now. Aarrggghhhh... I feel so bad that i can't be by her side. Wonder how is she, hope she will be back to her usual self soon. =) I know i shouldn't think this way but i really hope she will be going to the chalet this sat...

Somebody said I am a EMO person but am I?!?! Maybe bah... I think i should listen to him, delete all his infor like facebook, msn, friendster and even contact nums. Is it a childish act? I rather "see no evil", guess thats the best for the both of us. Seriously I thought we can be friends but sorry i am really sorry for telling lies, i dun think we can. But i will still wish you all the best in your future endeavours. And i know the both of us 一定会过的很幸福的。

Emo shortcake wanna go slp liao... Good night!

Happy Birthday To Me

2009-04-07T22:12:00.003+08:00

Its here... Nobody can escape it i guess. I thought i will be kinda scare and unhappy but i dnt. Ya, life still goes on for me... for you... But am i a failure? I have not achieve anything yet, not even a single thing. I just hope things can remain unchanged, i dun like changes, I hate the feeling of no confidence. i just wanna said i am really happy with what I am having now, really... Maybe bcos recently happen to know a few friends stories and i am glad that i am living well, "no unnecessary worries", still surviving on my job. Though not a high pay salary la. Suddenly I just luv myself for being so amazing... whahahaha

Must learn to be contended with what you have, if not never is enough.

I AM BLESSED!

2009-03-31T22:45:00.002+08:00

Happy moments always fly fast... Sian, back to reality again! Hope she won't start "nagging" early in the morning tomolo. FYI, i am having a headache and sore throat right now and i mean real bad one. Guess is bcos of my Bkk trip, not enough rest and "over walk". hahaha is been a long time since my last crazy shopping and due to my current job, my stamina is damn lousy.(such a disgrace) " But i had a great time with my lovely flower. We know where we want to go and want to do, the best thing is we have similar taste for clothing, food and club! I love you lambchop, thanks all the great entertainment you contributed during this trip.

I am feeling very contented with everything i have now, I love my family, my bunch of dearest friends and my job. Esp my friends, i wanna said a big thank you to you pple, I felt so honoured that you guys still cherish me. :D My birthday actaully don't mean anything but you make me feel like i am so special... The only complain in my job is Wanton Mee, if she can leave me alone, i believe i can get things done even faster!!! I dun mind you ask me to do alot of stuff but DUN NAG!! Arrghhh!!!

ok dudes, gtg.
Will be back soon. Nite

失眠的夜晚

2009-02-25T01:59:00.003+08:00

The time now is 2.04am, I should be in my dreamland long ago (byright...)But something just keep bothering me. Alot of questions on my mind, i don't wish to say out is bcos i hope it doesn't just ended like this, most of time when i act blur i am actually taking a step back.(if you know me well enough) So much time, effort and things that we been through, isn't it enough to understand what kind of personality i have?!

A friend of mine came to borrow money from me last week, I dnt offer my help is bcos the reason that she gave is not convincing and the amount that she wanted was too huge (and I know she can get the money if she wants to). She never call me ever since... Ya, this is kinda sad, thats why we always have many friends but a few good one. Give yourself a min and think, now if you are in need of help, who will you go to? and who will come to your rescue? And you will know what i mean...

Time is our best friend, no matter what happen, rain or shine, it will always move on with you. Time will heal the wound and ease the pain. Chua said friends are only passerby, only family are part of our life.(Well, i do agree.) But still there are a few close friends i wish to keep as long as i live, they are the only ones who can let me be myself and love me for who i am. =))

My Dearest Cousin Cheryl Grand Wedding

2009-01-18T13:32:00.005+08:00

Venue:Marina Mandarin, Singapore
Vanda Ballroom
Date: 15 January 2009
Prince Joe Chan and Princess Cheryl Chua

Happy Birthday gal

2008-12-28T20:14:00.012+08:00

Three cheers to The Powerpuffy Gals

My Shang Gong Niang Niang

Ning is happily opening up her present.

Creative Mp3 Player from Mr Obs, Ivy and me. (See, she is so in love with it. heez)

I want to go Holidays with them. I dun care!

Wow big big room

Me, the gamble Queen

New place to intro; Party World Karaoke at Liang Court Shopping Centre.(Previous Diamaru) Level 3.

very big room(They gave us 10 persons room for only 3 of us.)cordless mike

dices to play

disco light

2 LCD screen tv

2 tables

best part is the charge is the same as all other party world outlets. Try to go on weekend before 8pm. Promotion $9.80+++/pax for 4 hrs including one drink, titbits and fruits.

会不会觉得最近生活很无趣？每天都在重复一样的步伐。有时候都不知道自己是真的开心的笑还是我已经麻了... 我的笑不是理所当然的，也是有一天我再也不会因为开心而笑了。

1ST D&D @ KWE

2008-12-14T22:10:00.017+08:00

Date: 13 December 2008, 6.30pm
Venue: Grand Mercure Roxy Hotel
Theme: Wild Wild West

my hairdo

Me with my D.M

miss Ivy and I

my CJ7 trying to be funny again. haha

My Fav Handsome G.M! So happy that i can take a foto with him! =D

Mr Kelvin and me

Group pic with G.M and my dept colids.

Miss Anna and me. Shit I look so tanned! Ya, cos i wen sun-tanning in the morning. *pengz*

HongJunn and his gf Diana.

Maybe is my first d&d with KWE that's when I feel abit uneasy and weird as I do not know many of the pple and plus Stephanie is not there too so... ya, kinda bored actually and the pple I am sitting with are those quiet type. Sorry, I can be fun and loud only when I am with my gang. Haha den my S.M came over and asked me "why I so quiet and shy today?" Even though kookoo brain is there but we are not at the same table, the most sad part is there is this sickening auntie whom called the same name as me being shouting and cheering here and there. And when the MC looking for sexy and darling lady, think she volunteer herself to the stage and perform 'sexy chair dancing', can you imagine she can dance until pple need to shout enough??? *FAINT*!!! At that moment, I swear i hope my mom has never named me shirley.

I'm a Couch Potato!

2008-12-07T23:37:00.007+08:00

I have always been one, is only those pple who never understand me will never know. wohoo dramaramabahama again!! Some of the weekdays i slept at 2am+. omgggggg i totally look like a zombie in office esp after lunch! Ever since started watching My Love Destiny, i am back to my old times slacker, i love to lie on my sofa watching my dvd with my snacking, my mom will always shout from the back " you dun have bone huh?" hohohoho... so whats next? Hmmm... now waiting for my Lan Qiu Huo....

Errrr, i cant rem wads that called. MON....GUE? Ok it's like hardened cotton candy, but it still melts in ur mouth when u put it in.cooool rite? It's big, so u hav to share it with 10ppl. It's from Canele. woohooo. tried the dark choco (richhhhh), green tea creamy but subtle, my berries tart (yums!), and strawberry cake? which is super normal. but they are all damn expensive. zzz, you can only eat once in a big blue moon. One small slice of cake can buy you four plates of chicken rice.

I'm actually in a dilemma to be happy or not to be happy. Happy thing is SHE IS BACK! After so long (like 6 mths) she appeared. Don't know what is on her mind, you can never guess and get the answer. We trying to ask why and what happen but as usual, we expected the ans. Anw it doesn't matter, as long as i know she is fine now... But kinda sad is something is missing, the blonding between us is not as good as before. Why izzit like that? Why when i always think that it should have a happy ending but it did not. Is my expectation too high? Am i asking for too much? Someone told me that those whom can get along with you will naturally be with you, people do change as time pass, this is part and parcel of life. Well... Maybe...

so much things to do; so little time.
so many gifts to buy; so little money.
so many dramas to watch; so few holidays.

P.S I haven started buying X'mas presents. :O

New home. New office.

2008-11-05T06:08:00.011+08:00

My New Office

Carpentar at work

Miss lampchop is happily walking around... haha...

I hate unpacking! :)

Life is ..... Hectic, but im trying to be 'very relaxed'.The best is not having NOTHING to do, it is ... having so much to do but not doing it. HAHAHAHAA :D i really really hope there's a Time Machine. i dont believe that it's not real. Maybe the person who invented it has been secret using it for himself. Who knows! (I wont tell if i were him)

P.S thanks Mr Obs and Miss Ivy for offering their dearest help even though my babe dnt really help much yah. haha

Still alive and kicking

2008-10-19T18:50:00.014+08:00

WHOAAAA, it's been almost 3 weeks since i blogged. I bet everyone misses me :D Life has been pretty ALRIGHT (I cant say 'good), cos there are still a few pple that just wan to irritate me in my workplace and i simply dun know why? Damn, hate that cococrunch, vege and miss B! Haven think of a nick for B lah, will discuss with my k.k.brain and get one for her sooooonnnn! Dun worri, the rest of the 90% of the colids are very nice. Esp my FAV k.k.brain, never failed to make me laugh at work and in public. Thanks lor mei mei tissue yi bao. whahahaha... But i gonna miss him after my department shift to HQ, is saying mid of NOV but hope it will drag or best still dun move. haiz cannot gossip and see him anymore den nobody will dotes on me liao. SOb... sob...

i saw this: click http://snupped.com/product/stoffa-cuciti ok those who hate pink can skip it. but, i love the patch work!and they dont have a shop here. can only buy online ):anw, the rest of their collections are quite gd too. i mean, compared to other black/grey/mono colors that most places are selling.they'r fugly, totally!!

hahaha here he is my Fav koo koo brain!Ops!! I am not suppose to share this pic with everyone but guess he wont angry with me wan lah. whahaha

My best buddy at work, next time nobody go work together with me and help me tao bao food liao :(

我是个典型的牡羊座。

2008-09-29T23:01:00.002+08:00

牡羊座的女人

如果你期待一個林黛玉般的女孩來滿足你的男子氣概，碰到了她，你可真是門兒都沒有了，識相的話，趕快找個窗子開溜吧！在火星守護下的牡羊座女子，通常是積極而且堅強的。像小鳥依人、楚楚可憐這一類的形容詞很難加諸在她身上。

牡羊座的女子應該算得上十二個星座中，獨立性最強的女性。她絕對不是那種整天守在家裡，等著你來接她、送她，完全缺乏獨立行動能力的典型。對於大多數的牡羊座女孩來說，她寧願相信如果沒有你在身邊礙手礙腳，她辦事效率或許要高得多。聽我這麼說，你或許會以為這樣的女人是不需要男人的！那可就錯啦！自信而驕傲的牡羊座女性確有著堅強的獨立生存能力。但她們內心都深深地渴望著她夢中的白馬王子快點出現呢！很難相信吧！看起來那麼銳利的她，其實是充滿著童話般夢想的。而對所有的牡羊座女子來說，她們心裡最大的矛盾就是渴望征服對方，又期待著被對方征服的微妙心裡。

你現在可能有些擔心，不知道該如何扮演好自已的角色了，是嗎？別慌！先把你的「真心」準備好，以後的辦法就好商量了，雖然有一點點辛苦，不過保證值得。

首先，你必須認清，牡羊座的女子基本上是「英雄主義」的。她會傾心於一個令她佩服的男人。她要嫁一個讓她引以為傲的丈夫。她或許會比較欣賞事業有成的男人，但這並不表示她是個拜金主義者。家財萬貫的花花公子是不會讓她心動的，滿腔理想的熱血青年反而會受她的青睞。因此，如果你愛上了一個牡羊座的女子，請先不必展開熱烈的追求。哈巴狗一樣的男人會讓她既討厭又害怕，她深怕給你一個禮貌的微笑之後，你就會死纏著她不放了。你最好先讓她了解你的才幹、你的魅力，引起她對你的好奇（或者應該說引起她征服你的興趣），等你感受到她對你真有好感之後，你再誠懇的對她表示愛意，那麼前途就大有可為了！
你要像個「大男人」的樣子（我說過她很英雄主義），但是你絕不能對她頤指氣使。你一定要真心的關懷她，但絕對不要太縱容她。我想你應該用一種「英雄惜英雄」的態度來待你的牡羊座女人，才是比較適當的。

絕大多數的牡羊座女子都很好強，她們堅持要在對方的心目中保持最重要的地位。當然她也會把你擺在她心中最重要的位置。而且她很忠實、很大方。她願意與你分享她的一切。當然，她也會認為你應該與她分享一切，包括你的秘密。欺騙你的牡羊座女人，有如犯了欺君之罪一樣的嚴重。這一點你可千萬要記住，她情願聽你令她心碎的懺悔，也不要接受美麗的謊言。你最好少在她面前誇獎其她的女孩，尤其是那種由衷的讚美，極可能會引起雷霆大火。

我有好幾位牡羊座的好友，每次有聚會的時候，我一定只和她們的另一半保持禮貌性的交談，儘量避免談笑風生的場面。或許，你也會察覺，她的朋友也在刻意跟你保持一些距離，你可別以為大家都是敬鬼神而遠之。這是因為牡羊座的女人在朋友圈中，多半是大姐頭類型的人物，她很講意氣，很樂意幫助別人，因此，同性的朋友才不願意引起不必要的誤會。牡羊座的女人確實有點霸道，不過這也是她個性中可愛之處。遇到事情，她常常會挺身而出，她對朋友講義氣，對你也絕對如此。牡羊座的女人是會為愛人拚命的。

我有個經商的朋友娶了位能幹的牡羊座妻子。婚後，她的確成功的扮演著賢內助的角色，使他原本就蒸蒸日上的事業，更加飛黃騰達。我這個朋友什麼都好，既有才幹又顧家，只可惜風流本性始終改不了，不過索性都是逢場作戲，沒有驚動到太座大人，沒想到有一回遇上了一個厲害角色。這個女人對他死纏不放。尋死要活，搞到最後，他實在沒辦法了，只好老實向太太招供。或許很多女人會傷痛欲絕的跑回娘家去，要不就是跟老公又吵又鬧。我這個朋友的太太可沒這麼軟弱，她先是把我的朋友好好的數落一頓，然後問清楚了那個女人的住處，立刻趕到那兒去。她跟那個女人說：「妳要死要活，是妳的事，如果妳再敢找我老公，我就告妳，妳最好不要得寸進尺，否則我就讓妳死的很難看！

只花了三分鐘，這位牡羊座的妻子就把困擾老公兩個多月的問題解決了！誰敢說她不是賢內助呢！牡羊座女人永遠胳臂朝內，槍口朝外的態度是非常令人激賞的，但是你千萬要記住你們是一體的，吃裡扒外的男人可就要吃不了兜著走囉！

由於她們那麼積極堅強的個性，許多牡羊座的女子都會給人一種尖銳、而且愛找麻煩的印象。在表面上，她們是不會讓別人（尤其是男人）佔便宜的。很多人會認為牡羊座的女人總是尖嘴利牙的得理不饒人。正因為如此，她們常常會吃些暗虧，受到挫折，她們總是比其他的女孩活得辛苦一些。其實，你應該明白，她們的內心多半是正直、善良，而且脆弱的。只要你真心的關懷她，在她受了委屈的時侯，給她一個溫暖的懷抱，她會成為你一生忠實可靠的伴侶。

牡羊座的女人幾乎都可以成為出色的職業婦女，也同時能做稱職的家庭主婦。事實上，讓她擁有自已的事業對你們的婚姻是有幫助的。當她儘量在工作上發揮了她的好勝心和征服慾之後，回到家裡做綿羊的機會就比較大了。如果要一個精力旺盛的牡羊座女子，把心思全放在「你」的身上，我擔心你會有點受不了的。至於家庭，你大可放心，她雖然柴米油鹽之類的瑣事，不是那麼有興趣，但好強的她，不會讓自已成為一個失敗的主婦的。

還有件事你該慶幸，那就是我很少看到一個邋遢的牡羊座妻子，她們大多都在婚後依然保持光鮮亮麗，不願意別人譏笑她老公娶了個黃臉婆。就算偶爾懶散一下，只要老公稍加提醒，她們立刻就會警覺。我有個產後稍微發福的牡羊座女友，就因為老公說了一句「以前我最欣賞妳那雙修長的腿了。」她硬是兩個月減肥了二十磅。就憑她這股堅強的毅力，你能不相信她會全力以赴的做個好妻子嗎？

Bed Supper Club

2008-09-22T21:44:00.014+08:00

I was looking forward to the Bed supperclub Singapore as we aren’t always swamped with such trendy places opening up in our city. I haven’t been to any of the other supperclubs and was curious to see how it would look. The first impression it gave me was 'so Dome' cos of the long staircase. haha as we were fairly early, there weren’t many others there at this point but sad to say is the main room is only for dinning and invited guests, it will be only be open to all after 11.30pm. The main room comprises two floors, the top of which is more like a balcony looking down on the lower floor with immaculate white beds running the length of both the upstairs and downstairs.

There’s no denying that it’s a great space and is a very ‘cool’ place although maybe a little too cool. I really do hope it is successful but worry that the novelty factor may wear off pretty soon. Oh yeah, a word of warning: the toilets are unisex and is pretty dark in there so keep your wits about you. =)

P.S Don't have to get the 2 drinks at the main entrance and guys you MUST go cos there's alot of gorgeous babes and i mean it but pls wear smart if you dun wan the girls to give you a cold shoulder. :p

Miss OL! lol

2008-09-11T21:45:00.004+08:00

Still trying to adapt to office hours, the first 3 days was a torture man, is like back to school that i gotto wake up at 6.30am and cos closing mth is on 15th and they still have alot of backload to clear from last year so everyone is busy like siao. Seriously i know nothing about logistic, just on my 1st day i need to do billing and settlements to customers, i was so scare and blur like sotong sia and the people there very funny, 5.30pm nobody wanna knockoff wan. *Faint* the 1st day i asked myself should i just forget it and back to retail as the hours is more flexible so i can sleep longer.And i find my brain thinks slower in the morning. haha... Actually i still miss my old company and friends, i will tends to compare things like eg:why they all so serious, no communication wan?, no life wan?, so boring... But finally on my 4th day, i started begin to like my job cos i make new friends already and they are actually very nice and helpful, hmmm after all not so bad eh. haha...

Watz got into ME???

2008-08-26T01:26:00.011+08:00

Finally got the courage to cut off my long hair that been had with me for more than 15yrs, the last time in short hair was in secondary school days and it look sucks, real big sucks!! I am serious, everytime when i see my young photos i was like "OMG, is that me? 我到底是着麽活过来的! hahaha.. Anw i decided to take up the challenge again, i m not saying i had turned prettier ok, i am back-side itchy lah. whahahaha...

i cut twice actually... The first salon that i went, the hair stylist dun want to cut short for me, she simply follow her own way and i realised she is giving me the same hair style as her. Short fringe.. layer... shoulder and below... Guess she only know how to cut her own hair style or maybe she feels that she looks great and she wants everyone to be same as her. She can even tell me to cut short the next time when i want to do my reborning. WTF?? So the next day i went to my own hair stylist and asked her to cut for me. Waste money right? Haiz... that's me, often meet the wrong people at the wrong time, doing the wrong things at the wrong place.

So pple, how do you find my new look? Hopefully not too bad lah hor. :p

My Art Gallery

2008-08-18T22:15:00.023+08:00

The Call Gal
Naked

This is specially dedicate to my bestest fren Rac

Rac's cousin Ray wedding scrapcook(so nice!!)

This is my fav.

I am a female inside(definately)

I am happier today.

Of course not with the exception of sadder things first (!!) (not again!) - The mental hurdle of sad thoughts occupying my mind should well be overcomed. Very soon. Stay Positive my friends :D

=(

2008-08-13T00:04:00.004+08:00

All things have two different surface, good and bad. Just like i been counting down to my new company, it seems good to everyone but who knows it might not suit me or i dun have the capability in that area. Seriously I am kinda worried about my new job, its something that i have never encounter before and if i dnt perform well, i will feel bad when i face Stephanie... Now you all know Shirley Chiam is actually a 胆小鬼, basically no confident at all.

Today mood was really bad, think is bcos of him and YES is definitely bcos of him. Wanna find my bestest friend and tell her everything cos she is the only one who can understand me now, but i cant disturb her today cos is her b.day. Help!!! I can feel something in my throat that is making me so uncomfortable, arrghhhh... But this time round i finally get the ans that i been waiting and puzzled for the past few years. I am strong enough to hold back my tears. 我命令眼泪不许失控 even though my heart is so in pain. I really dun understand why he wanna appear after so long, 他是来向我示威的吗? den why he still wanna tell me stuff to make me feel bad and wrote those things as his tagline in his facebook/msn. Anw Mr CWD, I am really happy and glad that you are doing good now and more sensible than before, you will also always have a place in my memory. 谢谢你让我学会如何去爱一个人, 也谢谢你让我可以真的放下.

面对你的时候
我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客
因为路有些曲折
是美的
想起你的时候
我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾
因为我已爱过你
深深的

@@Yummy@@

2008-08-08T00:46:00.015+08:00

Exclusive photos during my BKK tip'08

2008-08-08T00:11:00.019+08:00

P.S 请注意看, 每一张照片都会有它的笑点.whahahaha...

.....

2008-07-11T01:53:00.007+08:00

My Princess is in a very good mood recently. =D

Well well as for me seriously, frankly, from the bottom of my heart, I am not happy. What is happy? Happy is like something that it seems so near yet so far for me now.I am not angry with anyone, just kinda sian with my life, same routine every day, BORED!!!

Its like you work so hard, one day you will still leave this world(the worst is if you have alot of saving), you married and settle down but in end your hubby got a scandal outside. You made alot of good friends but they are just making use of you.I know this is life. Yes i know... I am just lazy to change it, dun feel like doing anything or try anything new for the time being, I am a super lazy pig! Maybe this is the real me, the past 28 yrs of me is someone that lived for others bt yet show her true feelings. Now i am someone who cant voice out what's on my mind, regardless is at work or towards friends.Bt I have learnt something, if is a sceret meant to keep, den you better keep your mouth shut cos you will never know how many persons will he/she go and spread, can you imagine how scary it is when you thought nobody knows but in actual fact everyone knew it.

Counting down to my Bkk trip, this time round there is a total of 9 persons going.Hmmm me, ivy and rebekeh will be sleeping together, obs and sean share one room and the two couples will share another room. Maybe daytime can go separate way but clubbing is definately fun with so many pple around and i can drink my singha beer with my singha gang again. Yay!!! I am going to get drunk, i dun care.=>>

Captain Planet Drinking Session =))

2008-06-24T20:28:00.007+08:00

P.S thanks lampchop for the bottle, next time will be my turn yah? Muacksss

Suddenly realised life is short and fragile, esp after seeing so many disasters happened! I even asked my mum what if I go work as a volunteer? But of coz she won't let lah. :p

辛福不是必然的. I am thankful for still being to enjoy and live my life to the fullest.

=))

2008-06-17T22:47:00.026+08:00

HULK

Hmm, ok the first half hr seems like bit of Bourne Ultimatum with all the chasing and running at the favela of Rio de Janeiro. Seriously you will tell yourself you wont want to stay in that place. The other monster "THE ABOMINATION" looks really scary, like an alien dinosaur? Compared to the Hulk, he is ugly and can't fight. That final flapping clap from hulk is so funny haha but what i like is the brief appreance from Stan Lee and Robert Downey JR, I was like "hey, IRON MAN" and kept asking Mr Kuan why is he doing inside, hehe i doubt he will know the reason why. hohoho Marvel rocks man! I love all superheros :D

Shokudo

is located at Raffles city B1, its a something like marche, where you need to "self-service" everything but the difference is they only served Japanese food. Try don't go on weekend cos you will faint once you see the super long Q! Food was nice but the portiom was small and its was quite expensive esp the drinks and dessert.

China Trip(23 May- 05 June'08)

2008-06-10T00:58:00.003+08:00

Went 7 places(Xiamen,Anxi,Shanghai,Hangzhou,Suzhou,Wuzhen and Dongshan)in 2 weeks, quite fun but very tired and due to lack of sleep, nearly fall sick during the trip... Even until now I haven fully recover yet. Is good to go overseas once in awhile esp to places that their living standard is lower den us, you would den realised you are so fortunate. But sorry to say i hate their customer service, its a big sucks man! Dnt really buy much things this time round, dun really suits me... hmmm... i still prefer my Bangkok! Hahahaha

Dear friends, since china i already got you people things so i guess Bangkok i dun have to buy liao lah rite? (The above message is for my dearest Buddha's palm and Captain Planet members) Yay, i can concentrate shop til i drop... Bangkok here I come!!!=))

Tired but happy week.

2008-05-19T15:22:00.012+08:00

Yippee! Counting down down to my China trip, is holidays again!! Kinda worried in the first place but most of the pple told me since the earthquake had happened, dun think it will occur again for the time being. ( I pray hard) I am excited and nervous at that same time cossssssss my driving test is one day before my trip, 99% of my friends told me I will failed. Normally first time very seldom you will pass cos you will be nervous until you can't perform well. Sob... Nvm, i will still give my best shot, fail den retake lor. No big deal. =)

Transferred back to Tampines again! Countless time, maybe I am the only one who can bring up the sales cos nobody can break my record til now!! Muahahahah... Yay, can save alot on my transport and food and the best part is I can sleep longer. haha Vivo one full shift=$30. Tamp one full shift=$10. SEE.... So much different man! Anyway, most likely going to change my job after I got my bonus, 我不会一时冲动的 even though i can't wait to get that woman out of my sight but I will make sure its better offer den I will quit. 谁要跟钱过不去对不对?

Love this overall that I brought @ Fox for $69. Not X liao hor? :p
他说他的背影比较帅!haha

I am not saying good words for myself but recently I realised that my temper tone down alot.
如果是以前的我,他/她会死得很残. Maybe is bcos i see alot of things or been through somethings that makes me a better person now. Nobody is perfect, before you give comments about other, think about how the person will feel? I don't wish to voice out doesn't mean I agree or feel guilty, I just don't want to hurt you back like what you did to me. But I really hate friends 放飞机, sms or call never reply or ans. HELLO!!! You said you bz or something happened until you forgotton about it. Once or twice is fine but if is more than that, that can only shows that I am that least important to you. C'mon we are all adults, dun you feel that you should at least give a sms to let me know you are safe and sound. Bear in mind, we can from strangers to good friends, I can also give you a status of acquaintance anytime, you are really NOBODY. Thanks

Had dinner with Ruth, Jenelyn, Chai sia and Rosemarie @ Bugis Parklene steamboat Restaurant. Nice colids, so sad Ruth and Jenelyn are leaving soon... All the best gals, fate will bring us back together again one day.

Imagine my hair short looks like this. Hmmmm... Errrrr... Still not so bad right? ;) Yes I know, keep saying only, no guts to cut teo bo. hehe

The Singapore Flyer

2008-05-12T00:24:00.015+08:00

Duration of one ride about 30 mins. You can choose the time you wish to aboard, last filght boarding is 10.15pm. Adult $29.50 Child 3-12yrs old $20.65, this is the normal and the most cheapest type. Available in Express and Cocktail Flight as well which is much higher prices so no point. NOTE: From now til 19 MAY2008 2 Adults free 2 kids (below 12 yrs old). Hurry while no more!!! But i will advise have your meal before you go there cos the choices of food is not much.

Whazzz up with ME???

2008-05-09T13:42:00.003+08:00

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round

Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with youThey try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

P.S I'm so in love with this song...

Was at office this morning for meeting with our G.M and doing my appraisal with my O.M and B.M. There are somethings i wanna let my O.M know but i got no chance and is not a time to voice out cos whatever things I said will reflect on my B.M. I am feeling very low morale and sad as the marks is not up to my expectation. My mid-year bonus gotto reflects on this man. DAMN! I dun blame them, as is really my fault, dunno what rubbish i been doing for the past 6 mths. Never hit the sales target that she wants, been coming in late and going off early for work, take AL during super peak season. Haizz... Is it meaning that is time to change a new job?

I used to look up on my work, putting it as an important place in my heart, i need to have passion in order to driven myself to meet certain needs in job. And only work can help me to forget worries and unhappines that i been through.(cos time always passes the fastest when you come out to work) I felt very guilty after hearing what my O.M had said, she wants back the old shirley, she really dotes me alot(yes i know). I think I belong to those type that can only have one commitment at one time person. I can't concentrate on work when I am with my guy, not to blame on anybody, is all my fault, I will buck up!! Anw just wanna say thanks and sorry to A.C.

2008-05-05T00:31:00.012+08:00

Nice fitting rooms in TANGS, big and cosy. so... I can't help to take some pics. keke

If only I could be this slim, den I will be damn damn super busy i tell you. I know I bu-yao-lian. hehe

Sunglasses?? No, this is the new bra that just stick to your breast and push to the limits. Not bad but i dnt buy. Y? Hmmm cos poor people like me cannot afford lor. hahahaha

I give up!! Just throw away everything, go China and Bangkok to get new ones. hohohoho... (If only I could ;p)

Went to watch Iron-man and had dinner at this Japanese restaurant at The Cathay Picture house B1, Forgotten the name already, sushi @ 99cents only. Good deal but not really that fantastic, still prefer Sakae. I luv Iron-man, he is a man with everything and also a man with nothing. If I am as intelligent as him, I will get myself a pink suit and fly to japan shopping, can save air ticket money and airport taxes. haha I wish and i hope my future husband, my brother, my friend or somebody i know is an iron man, anw He Rocks!!! No more war, world peace pls!

I am such a loser

2008-05-03T01:20:00.002+08:00

The time now is 01:21AM, just met up with Ernie for deserts at one of the shop at Liang Seah Street(sorry if i got the wrong spelling) and went over to Secret Garden for a short while cos they are closing at 12am. :( You are right babe, we should go there earlier next time. Quite disappointed with the apple crumble, it used to be my favourite but not now anymore, bet rick will have the small thought as me if he tries it. Luckily the brownie was still alright, only the portion had turned smaller. hehe

I am still in a dilemma whether to meet him later even though i already told him I am free in the afternoon. Don't know, my feeling now is very complicated. I told myself I must and I want to stay away from him, I am really trying my very best, keeping myself busy, try not to think about him but how to? When I keep going to a place that reminds me of him and esp when I see his friends. I did told him the same thing too. I am not missing him, i not finding excuses, is just that the person will just came into your mind every now and then. Maybe I am scare to face him, whenever I see him, I will become stupid and naive, believe all his words again, even countless time i told myself to wake up. He can very sweet and thoughtful sometimes but too bad his social life is too corrupted! I hope I can be comfortable later in front of him after all this things had happened, guess both of us need slightly bit of time before we can become back to normal friends again. I dun mind to have him as a friend, seriously... and btw I am still happy for who I am at this stage of life. :)

Anyway my mama is so cute, she already started thinking what she wanna wear and how many luggage she is going to bring to China. Haha she must be looking forward for it though her mouth always said 又不是没有去过 :p Mothers' Day is coming, still dunno what to get for her, my uncle promised her to bring her to 'No Signboard' to eat but I was really puzzled, thought M.D is a day for their children to show appreciated to their mothers den why husband also need to get something? hohohoho.... My uncle is the best husband and man that I ever met, hope i can be as lucky as my mom too when I meet my right guy. But I still love my Dad, no one can replace him in my heart, he might not be the best, at least I know he tried. :)

2008-05-02T00:36:00.007+08:00

Yippee!! Brought this Olympus camera @ $429. hehe...

8.0 Mega pixels
5x zoom
2.7 LCD monitor
Dual image Stabilization
Face Detection
Shadow Adjustment
Perfect Shot Preview

And its comes with a 2GB memory card. The most IMPORTANT is its my favourite colour!!! =))))

Resolutions for 2008-2010

2008-04-28T00:43:00.003+08:00

change a new job
cut short my hair
get my driving licence
saving can reach up to 5 digits
lose at least 5kg of weight
forget him, him and him.(so many hessss... hahaha...)
cut down clubbing, do more exercises
force myself to be fake at work
hope to see him again(at least for once)
laugh more, less angry
take makeover photos again(the previous time was errrrrr)
buy at least 3 more branded bags ;p
slowly lost contact with blah blah blah
change a new pc/laptop
buy a new digital camera
A TAG Heuer watch
Japan Trip
Go HongKong or Taiwan
learn to accept new people in my life
get married.

我是一个自恋狂！

2008-04-24T21:05:00.005+08:00

My new hairdo! Hmmm... maybe look the same to some pple but at least i can tell the difference... hehe... Aiya i got sometime at home so must take some pretty photos straight after my hair cut.(Yes i know, excuses rite?) Whatever...

Not really in the mood to go out actually plus I m BROKE!! Lose money in Genting Casino, pls dun ask me how much, i can only said its 3 digits. Sob... Need to save alot of $$$$ for my China trip next month and my Bangkok on Aug'08. So you can imagine how pathetic I am right? And my stupid SO at work still haven get back to me whether my AL can approve anot, wahlau. I dun care, 大不了东家不打, 打西家. Anyway looking forward for the badminton session tomorrow, its time for some workout. Had put on so much weight, some of my jeans cannot wear liao!! Arrrgghhh.... :(

: /

2008-04-24T13:42:00.011+08:00

All i do is eat and eat and eat for the past whole week... kekeke... now i just need to get enough sleep and i will be back! Hmmm the only question is how much sleep is enough or when you know is enough? cos ENOUGH is never in my dictionary :p Pls just let me pamered myself for awhile, i badly needed it right now.

Taken in one of the restaurants in Genting( cant help cos the washroom lighting is too nice) hehe...

Sorry this time round not much photos taken and dnt look good in it too(heh i talked like i am supermodel out for work siaaaaa) whahahaha.... I mean the main motive is to relax and energized!!!
P.S thanks for your sweet thought, I am much better now. Maybe you had made the wrong choice once but i hope you won't do it again. Anw what a surprise!! :x
I hope he can keep his promise, its between the both of us. I don't like a third party(esp someone that is not close with me) to tell me he know about my stuff, is so scary... I hate that feeling!!! Sometimes you can be unsure abt your feelings towards another person but at least i dun wan to have the wrong judgement towards the person character.

我知道我不应该原谅你，
但是恨一个人并不是我的本能，
有爱才有恨，没有爱又那来的恨呢？

The 3 Arians b.day celebration at Marina @ Keppel Bay

2008-04-14T23:10:00.026+08:00

P.S a very nice chill out place, its just 5mins driving from Harbour Front-(The Caribbean). People who haven come to this place, its a must go!! Well the drink price is something like Dempsey. Thanks bro for bringing us to this lovely place. =))

Back.

2008-04-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

Haven been writing for a month, alot of stuffs to say, dunno which one to start first and suddenly no idea how to put it... Must be very careful with my words cos I know my friends are reading. :) Seriously I don't mind to let others know some of my personal things, I mean what's the purpose of blogging? Blogging is like writing a dairy, you need to write is bcos either you wanna share or you wanna let it out. But when you know people will gossip and talk behind your back, you will hesitate again. Hmmm...

Held my birthday celebration at st.James DF this year, overall, it was a successful and happy gathering as many of my close friends turned up.

Received alot of presents and ang bao! Hohohoho.... :D I know this will sound thick-skinned but I juz wanna say I know I am being pampered and well-liked by my friends!! Hahahaha... Out of it, the top 3 presents that I like most is Tiffany necklace from my Bestfriend Rac, Tiffany key-chain from Rick, Sean and Ernie and Gucci coin purse from Ivy, Ning, Ojs and Obs. All branded sia... Kekeke... The most important present is still from my dearest mama, she is paying for my China trip next month as my birthday present. LOVE her deep deep... hahahaha... I am really looking froward not bcos is going on trip, is bcos my ah ma is going too!! Yippee, its being 2 yrs+ since we went on a trip together, the last trip was to Genting when my grandfather was still around. Haiz... not to mention anymore, if not I will start become a crying baby again.

P.S Love you gals and guys, many thanks for the lovely thoughts!

Life is like riding on a roller-coaster, this moment you are happy going up, the next min you
might be down on your luck. I have learnt to be humble. To me, nothing really matters anymore except my family. I always think that everything happens for a reason, maybe you see it bad from your point of view but isn't rainbow appear after rain??? But I must say humans are the most scary creatures in the world, they can be so fake and sweet in front of you but deep in their heart they are thinking else wise. I know. But since you like to act den I will just play along with you. I won't envy or jealous you cos I strongly believe that I can and I will have it if I want. I will wish you good luck and hope your happiness will last as long as it takes.

Let's start from here, lose the past

Change our mind, we don't need a finish line

Let's take this chance, not think too deep of all those promises we couldn't seems to keep
I don't care where we go...

Really...

:-/

2008-03-15T15:30:00.000+08:00

*Yawnnnnn* I woke up at 1pm, how come I am still so sleepy?? I can take a short nap now but he can't give me an confirm answer what time he finishes his work. What if he call me in 10mins later? 2hrs later? Arrrgghh... I don't want to sleep awhile and wakes up.(This will lead me to headache, I am having a little now actually.) Sorry, i know this sound very stupid, i also couldn't believe that i am behaving like an idiot recently. This is NOT me at all!! Where are all my ego? my pride? my confitdent?

Floyd told me that all men are the same. The more you leave them alone, the more they will come to you. Don't pamper them too much, let them know you care, you are sweet, you will be there But... you have your life, your friends, your work to busy with too. Guy likes a girl to be independent and understanding. Oh mr Floyd, this is so difficult and so 'chim'. Guess I need to take slightly more time to figure out. I am smart in some way but definately not in boy-girl stuff. Haha...

Anyway haven decided where to catch a movie, hopefully he won't be too tired( Its a saturday and he gotto work, sure he feels tired.) Wanted to give him an advance b.day surprise as his b.day falls on monday, errr seriously i am kinda lousy in this area, never know how to surprise a person cos my little actions will always 'chui mai wo'. Hehe... Esp towards him, he seems to read my mind( so sacry...) Maybe a simple outing is good as well i guess.

Den I still wanna take a nap anot? Haizzz... NU REN!! :O Hahaha...

New place, new people.

2008-03-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

Today is my 4th day @ Vivo, still trying to get used myself over there cos compare to Tamp is really so much different. The crowd, staff, the journey and the food is soooo X. I still prefer TAMP! I MISS HAO, FAT, MAI, RUTH and WENQING. :((( Time was like never enough for the past whole week, at least i wish i could have more time to cover my sleep.

I am in a mixture of feelings now, I don't know. A guy came into my life, he is so deep that he can tell me this is not the right time yet but on the other hand treat me so sweet. He said we are too fast, this i agree too. But one thing for sure is if I am going to continue like this i will go mad. I am seeing him like 5 days out of a week. Omgomg... But he is not my boyfriend and i am so scare that this is just a crush. Haiz... I think i should stop this, let things go slower so that I can see my feelings clear. I really hope that someone out there can hear me out, but who should I go to? Later my friends will said, everyone you also got feeling, everyone is special. :X Ya, that's me but i guess is not a bad thing to fond more than one person rite? This shows that I see people with the heart thats why I see the person beauty and fall for him. Hehe...

But there is something very bad about me, I can fall for you right away, I can like no feelings the next moment. But believe me, when I like you, i mean it. Ryan called me today, i suddenly realised we should not have started, I dun know how to face him or what to say to him. Think he get the hint from my almost 2 weeks of MIA. Sorry Ryan, guess its time to say goodbye but nice knowing though. Take care , my friend. :)

Its a Flirt Flirt world

2008-02-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

HOW GIRLS FLIRT:

1.She calls you by your full name not just a nick name.
2. She hits you softly on the arm and laughs when you say something funny.
3. She flips her hair when she's talking to you.
4. She touches your arm when she talks to you.
5. She says, "No, I'm not telling you who I like!" with a big smile on her face.
6. She asks you who you like or who you would go out with seemingly interested.
7. When you go to the movies with a bunch of your friends and she is almost always next to you.
8. She criticizes you on a girl you like.
9. You catch her staring at you.
10. She plays with your hair or tries to put make up on you.
11. Her friends outside of school and in school know about you, and says she talks about you a lot.
12. She knows your phone number and address. ( stalker much? )
13. She will try and talk, and spend time with you as much as possible

HOW GUYS FLIRT:

1. He stares at you alot.
2. He hits you alot. (just play hitting )
3. He uses the first thing that pops into his head to start a conversation with you
4. He yelled, "Hi!", to your mum that day she picked you up from school.
5. He blew off his buds to go see "Brown Sugar" with you cuz you couldn't get another girl pal to go and didn't want to go alone.
6. He tries to make you laugh anyway even if he gets hurt in the process
7. His voice gets softer when ever you two talk.
8. You hung up on him. He called you back.
9. You were invited by him to a group outing.10.
He called you to talk about nothing at all.
11. He imitates your laugh. OK, you do laugh PRETTY LOUD. Which makes you laugh even harder...
12. He remembers little things you mention in casual conversation
13. He sometimes stares straight into your eyes.
14. He uses every possible way to touch you (your hair, face, thighs, KNEES,etc.)

NOTED FOR PLAYER: Well... all I can say is enjoy the process, give it all when you are in it.(cos a real player will act like he/she is falling deep.) when is time to let go, move on and dun hold back. Dun think of revenge and never shed a tear. Try not to keep in touch, there is no such things as remain friends after broke up. Unless you think he is the right one. ( Actually I oso dun know who is the right one for me.) That is someone on my heart just like a tattoo, he is still a part of everything i do. Will always be i guess...

I know i dnt move on... I thought i had. Why does it still bother me so much??? If only he understands how I feel and know my real motive...

Happy Happy Birthday Lambchop!!!

2008-02-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

Ivy treated us to a dinner at Far East NaNa thai restaurant. Thanks alot babe! Muack... After tat, we decided to go P.S cafe @ Dempsey to chill out. Its a must to have 2nd round whenever we meet up, there will be endless laughter, gossip and update to share among us. Time is never enough... I love them, ever since the day I know them at Levis Suntec which is 5 yrs back and that time they are still schooling...I will never forget the day that how me and ivy 'break the ice', is all bcos of A MOSQUITO. Whahaha... Omg, I cannot imagine I can actually click and get along with gals that are small age as my younger bro(Note: especially Ning!!) haha. But I did, we became real good friends, sometimes they can even console and give me advise. Lambchop, you had been such a wonderful friend to me, always support me even when I make 'silly' decision. Guess now you are the only one who understand what I am going through and know how I really feel. Ivy and Ning, thanks for appearing in my life, you gals never know that our friendship meant alot to me. Three cheers for that! =)) Looking forward for our next gathering, I got this feel it will be my birthday... keke...

Happy me. (at least for now)

2008-02-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

I love the life that I am having now. I admire myself for being hard working, real(at least when I am with you), loud and sweet( can be a sweetie pie if i want to). Cuz some gals they are just to fake!!! Act naive and innocent in definately OUT in this century my goodness. hahaha... Whatever you wanna do, but just out of my sight pls?? I dun care who are you and who the F**k you are! Shirley will always be shirley. =))

Being so busy with "DAYZ" ever since NOV'07 (x'mas day, wedding days, Cny, birthdays etc) plus festive season my workload is like never ending... Haven been rest well until now, so I am really enjoying the 'off-peak' period in work now, hopefully and I pray hard that this month can hit target so I can get myself a present as a reward for lacking of sleep for the past few months.( I know, what an excuse rite? hehe)Still thinking about cutting my hair short, why??? Why my face is not small? Den i dun have to worry so much. Not FAIR!!! Why so gals can be so pretty and slim? Jealous and envy!!! Haizzz... People tends to say you will sure have one of it in you. Example: look, figure, brainy, money and good personality. So what do I have? I got no money, no figure, not smart, not pretty. Hmmm... personality still not so bad but cannot consider very good oso cos like gossip about others. :p That's why I say, LIFE IS NOT FAIR.

Ryan Yiap Zhan Hong

2008-02-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

He loves star gazing, basketball, pool, bowling, soccer, mahjong, support MU, RYAN GIGGS is his football idol and etc... Most importantly is HE LOVES TO SLEEP!!! I like to call him a pig but he said he's my cat cos real fact is pig dun slp alot, they only eat alot. Cat is the animal that sleep the most. What a logic... kekeke...

I am writting about him on my blog tonight is bcos if one day we are no longer together, at least I know there is this special guy ever appear in my life before. I keep my love life in low profile, maybe is bcos I don't have much faith in relationships anymore. To me, as along as both parties are happy being with each other, thats enough. He is the sweetest and nicest guy that I ever met. He's real, honest, naive, straight-forward, caring and thoughtful. He got everything in a guy that I am looking for....

But the more sweet he is, the more guilty I am... I dnt expect he treat it so seriously... Is all my fault, why should I lie in the 1st place?I am sorry, I am selfish, I know we wont get anywhere in d end. Ryan, there's alot of things I wanna tel you besides how I felt for you but I just dunno where to start... Everytime I see your face, those words just stucked in my throat. Whatever happen in future, I hope you will always remember me in your heart and also forgive me if I ever did anything to upset you. From the bottom of my heart, I dun mean to appear and disturb your current life, fate just brought me to your side. I really enjoyed the moment that we spend together...

I thank God for bringing them to my side.

2008-01-27T19:33:00.000+08:00

I had a wonderful time at Changi Airport on friday with my dearest brother and baby niece. I'm grateful that I have them by my side. Alot of things in life is unexpected, I used to hate this type of surprises but eventually I know this is what we called ' Fate'. Since we can't push and avoid it den why not happily accept what God had planned and give to you. Suddenly I had a feeling of having a baby of my own. I dun mind I married to a guy that I like but NOT LOVE. I guess I am prepared, love is not everlasting, esp after seeing alot failure marriage, I seems to have no trust in men anymore. But I admit I really love kids alot... Haha...
'

Shortcake and Lampchop A Day Out!!!

2008-01-26T10:42:00.000+08:00

I just luv her!!! Thanks for the dinner sweetie pie. From Central to Peninsula to Arena to MOS, had enjoyed myself very very much. haha not to forget 'the scooter' story. *faint* whahahaha...

I am still trying hard to balance my life

2008-01-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

Something scary happened on monday that makes me feel like going thru every single day is so tiring, i can't figure out why and where did he get the guts to do it? I didn't sleep well almost every night. I was kinda pissed off with my mom on the other hand that she is acting so strange lately, it is not her at all. Maybe I neglected that she need some attention at this time too... Anyway is a tough week for me, work is busy but I can't rest well at home. Luckily I have countless good friends that make my life colourful. Went to Sallz and Jeffz wedding on Wednesday, she slim down and she looks gorgeous, so happy that my little dear sis in our 'group' is being well take care of from now onwards. So Sanz and Juve, when's our turn? Haha...

Meet up with my gang ernie, rick and sean on saturday. We went for dinner at river valley Boon Tong Kee Chicken rice, the food is so good, yummy yummy, I will order the ribs the next time i go. Thanks boss!!! whahaha.... After dinner, we went to Ben's and Jerry's at Dempsey Road for chill out, we choose that place is bocs we were hooked by the singer there. He has a clear and smooth voice, seriously singing live is not easy, not to mention 'lone-ranger'. I had Hoegarden while the rest got their ice-cream. hehe too bad couldn't stay late as already promised my mama to go home early.

Faith and Destiny Stories

2008-01-13T23:41:00.000+08:00

Destiny and Faith came together one cold night,
Brought together by Love at first sight.
Both wanted warmth and both yearned solace;
And in each other, they got what they wanted.

Alas, things aren’t always perfect,
Even in the realm of fantasy.
Faith wanted Destiny to have faith
And Destiny wanted Faith to believe in destiny.

Neither gave in but they continued being together,
Thinking that Love would see them through.
How were they to know?
Love was really an illusion, no form only function.

The joker on the moon smirked at the show.
Laughing at Faith and Destiny,
For failing to see.
That they both really were just Faith and Destiny.

The Year of Jacky Cheung World Tour'07

2008-01-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

Went to watch Jacky concert on 5 Jan'08 with my bestest friend Rachel, thanks to her that I have free concert to watch. =)) so sad to hear that this will be his last time performing tour concert(hopefully its not), singapore is his num 92 and 93, his last two concert will be held in hongkong on 26 and 27 Jan'08. He had been singing for 23 years... Now I know why people call him 歌神, basically he don't need any dancers, any special guest or special performance, his vocal is so good until there's no difference from the disc. Concert ended, we decided to go Lunar at Clarke Quay to check it out, heard that 绝对superstars singing down there. After hearing their 'live' singing, I tell myself I wont go back to the place again, my hubby sings 100x better than them and the concept is more like a pub, you will feel weird to shake your body, overall I still prefer my 'DF'. haha...

Careless and Stupid Me.

2008-01-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

This incident happened on 19 Dec 2007, 9.49am. Place: Tampines Central 5. I remembered i was working morning shift that day, i went over to the Old ChangKee to buy breakfast. Usually in the morning, the traffic over there is quiet and people who had been to Tampines Mall should know that the traffic junction is just a very short distance. Just after i across the road, I was been called by this trafffic policeman and told me that I will be charged "jaywalk" and the composition amount is $20. Wah sian, early morning so suay and this is my FIRST time kena caught. Here goes my $20... Sob...

New Year'08 countdown

2008-01-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

Was so worried that the night will not turn out well as there are too many people and most of them are my bestest good buddies, I am so afraid to neglect anyone of them but resulting NOOOO!!! Its was so damn fun! I really enjoyed myself to the fullest. Celebrating the countdown at Ivy's house(thanks lampchop for borrrowing us the place to bbq. muacks.) with my dearest buddha's palm, captain's planet team members and J2 and friends. We had bbq, drinking and games session. We had a total of 7 bottles liquor.(3 red wine, 1 sparkling wine, 1 whisky and 2 martell.) Cool right? haha... Our 007 game is definately different from others, we use other stuff to replace "AH". Everyone was so high, I was so tisspy, went toilet to vomit a few times, ( hey I am not lousy ok? that was bcos I cannot drink red wine, I get drunk very easy with red wine.) But guess I am not as gone as J2 and kum,*heng...* =P Opps! Well, if you want to know more, my pictures tell everything... Muahahaha...

A super busy day

2007-12-31T00:38:00.000+08:00

Can you believe today i work for 12hrs but yet only went for less den an hour break?! The pple dun know come from where wan, the crowd just keep coming in... Pay day plus bonus=spending without thinking. haha... My whole body is so tired now, tomolo still gotto wake up early to settle some stuff den meet ivy, obs, jackshen they all go buy food for our bbq at night. I am very worried that i wont enjoy myself and maybe i cant be myself. Shit!! this is my problem, if there is somebody or something making me uneasy, i wont be able to enjoy to the fullest! That's all i can say. Hopefully everything goes well tomolo... *yawn*.. my bed is calling me.. bye.

Happy New Year!!!

2007-12-30T02:06:00.000+08:00

Happy new year to all my beloved friends, I wish and pray you will be fine and happy every single day. Another 2 days will be 2008. Looking forward to Ivy's house for bbq on 31st... Yay!!! Time flies, especially this year, maybe because of alot of activties that's why... I am so fortunate to meet many new friends this year, through these pple, I came to realise and learn alot of things from them. Of coz in between there are good and bad stuffz. I know i have changed, i no longer trusted pple as what i use do.(maybe i am still cos it always turn out the person that i believe our friendship will always be there, hurts me in some way.) Well... I do admit I have high expectations on my friends but i am NOT a demanding person lor. You have to undergo certain tests before i open my heart to you, i maybe quiet or smiling away but my eyes are looking. But once i think you are a friend indeed, I will go all the way for you and thats when you will start to see my stupidity and sweetness. I just feel that you must be yourself, no point ACT sweet, act cute, act stupid, act innocent!!! For wat? this is not you and how long can you pretend?! But one thing I must say is normally this kind of pretenders can go far... That's the reason why I am stuck in my company for so long but yet climb the slowest... I don't have EQ, and i really hate myself for this. I just cant simply control and be fake for that bloody few moments!!! Signs...